December 2010
22 posts
An Update.
I’m doing a lot better. I haven’t posted in a while, but I’m doing a lot better.
one last post.
being in psychiatric ward was the single most terrible thing to ever to happen to me. i’m not cured, but i’m better. i’m still weak, but i’m getting strong. i never want to drop to that point where i need to baker acted ever again. i’m going to go to sleep now.
i wrote so much while i was there, i journaled and wrote and listened. i have the weight of 1000 worlds...
just got out the hospital
i was baker acted for 90 hours in a psych ward.
i need time to myself. i won’t be on here for a couple of days..or longer, i hit the lowest point ever in my life.
i just attempted suicide
evertying is bvlurry i cant walk not one of you will care honestly but i thought i didnt want to live i wrote evertone letters sasying goodbye i freaking prated to god to forgive me and that im sorry i wanted him in my llife so id goo to heaven
i can't live like this anymore.
i’m on the last straw. all i do is cry, everything reminds me of him. i just want to go away to rehab..like emotional rehab to get away from everything, from reminders of him, from my phone, from facebook.
I'm so pathetic.
someone take my phone away from me. I just know one message I send will hit his heart and he’ll realize he’s supposed to be with me. In reality though, why entertain the girl who you know is there for you? What’s the fun in that, guys like the chase, but I just know if I leave him alone he’ll forget about me and all we had. I have guys texting me and this one guy who seems...
i think i might just
vodkasexweed:
go back to sleep. i slept 16 hours already last night, but sleep is the only time where everything is alright. where things are back to how they used to be. when my dreams are happy memories of what we used to have.
maybe i'll go watch ...
(500) days of summer he’s just not that into you The notebook and then kill myself.
my intake after this.
saturday: nothing, tried to eat outback ,ordered a steak, a potato and a ceasar salad. ate one bite of steak, a couple bites of salad, then couldn’t keep it down. sunday: nothing. monday: half a cup of broccoli cheddar soup from panera and a couple nibbles of bread tuesday: attempted to eat a ceasar salad and mashed potatoes from tgi fridays, ate two bites of mashed potatoes and some...
Update.
He works for a company that works my dad, and my dad had a “little talk with him”, he basically said he doesn’t appreciate the way he treated me, that he doesn’t appreciate him leading me on, then getting a new girlfriend, but still using me until the last minute, he doesn’t appreciate him messaging me saying, “she’s here..she says hi :)” Brian said...
You didn’t love her. You just didn’t want to be...
"Never tell your problems to anyone. 20% don't...
cannablissful:
- Lou Holtz
What I wouldn't give to kiss you more time..
we didn’t get to the last time I saw you because you had a coldsore, all I want is one more hug where it feels like you don’t want to let go, one more kiss where you melt me to the core and I get weak in the knees. I wish things didn’t end this way, I’ll never have closure..I hope to God I have the strength to get over this.
currently cry to every song, ever.
taylor swift, i never thought i’d relate to your songs, but every single one hits the heart and i find myself crying like a freaking baby. As well as the song Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri. Hell, I cry to freaking rap songs now, things that remind me of him, which is pretty much anywhere in Brandon. I can’t drive down his main road, and I need to go down it to get to class..I need...
konfusion: So much drama while tumblr was down, of... →
christine-cleveland:
konfusionxo:
My ex and I officially don’t have contact..sorta. He started hanging out with an immature high school bitch who is fugly, and ugh, whatever, even though he said we could still work on it, if you’ve been following me I’m sure you’ve seen my posts about it. Well, they went out on a date and…
lol i facebook stalked and WTF who the helll is that girl?
she...
feathersnlace replied to your post: I’m so beyond hurting right now. The best thing you can do is block his account and hers, that way you wont be tempted to constantly look at them, the more you look the more it hurts, I know i’ve been there! You need to do it, protect yourself, protect your heart!
whitefluffycloud replied to your post: I’m so beyond hurting right now. If you ever...
I'm so beyond hurting right now.
How can you give up 7 months of progress, of a relationship, over a girl you met on Facebook one week ago. An immature girl, he “liked” her comment of “So suck on that Meagan”, he’s posting YouTube videos to her wall that we used to watch together…
I can’t do this, I can’t take this. Part of me feels like dying, not that I’d ever, ever commit suicide, I just wish I’d never been born. Why can’t...
So much drama while tumblr was down, of course.
My ex and I officially don’t have contact..sorta. He started hanging out with an immature high school bitch who is fugly, and ugh, whatever, even though he said we could still work on it, if you’ve been following me I’m sure you’ve seen my posts about it. Well, they went out on a date and yesterday they hung out. Her status that afternoon was “Had such an awesome day with Brian! :D Crazy Bitch,...
don't make someone a priority when you're hardly...
GAINESVILLE HERE I COME.
Signed my sublease today, registered for classes at Santa Fe. Just got to wait until sub lease goes through and it’s all official, then I’m in Gainesville and outta this bumfuck town called Brandon, Florida.
we-should-fuck-now-since-i asked: http://g-mac.tumblr.com/post/2060276077/lmao-idiot